As I think about my year I am sentimental, because there is so much that has happened in my life and in my healing journey. So much love for friends and family that gather around as I have made it to another year and there is so much to celebrate this year! I know I say this every year and I feel it every day I awaken as life is so precious. My most beautiful time is in the early morning when I listen for and hear the word of God.
As I've said every year and I say it again, I am blessed and have been touched by so much love.
I love my life and I don't take any of it for granted. In this past year, I have successfully undergone total joint knee replacement surgery and the whole undertaking was something I will never forget as I had to conquer my fears, trust, and let go of my control. I had to surrender and rely on those around me like never before. I had to go to physical therapy and keep on moving when every inch of my being was in physical pain. My partner had to watch me suffer and he took care of me every step of the way. Neighbors rooted me on in my neighborhood as I gathered my physical, mental, and emotional strength. It is a year later and I am fully recovered with that knee. I thank the skill of Dr. Kaplan at Lewis County General Hospital and his team for the care I received recovering. I thank Sue Austin at Northern Regional Center for Independent Living for her unwavering peer support, my sister Pamela, and I thank my church family at the First Presbyterian Church in Lowville who came to my home with meals and fed me and my family in our time of need. It takes a community to love one another and I am certainly loved in this one.
I feel rooted and I feel safe as I undertake other self improvements. It is no small feat that I quit smoking cold turkey! I decided to give it up for lent this year, for once and for all, as I no longer need that crutch. There is nothing I cannot do with God's help.
I love my life and I continue to love others as I go about my day. It all begins with loving myself and spending time in the morning with thoughtful reflection and setting my intentions to give and receive love. My life is rippling and I feel that I have really come into my own this year. I am 52 years old and I am content and it is with joy that I say that I look forward to my every day because I am still learning. This is a gift I got from my Dad. It is his legacy he passed onto me. I can't help but wonder what kinds of gifts my children will develop having known me?
I am going to close for now. I continue to keep on writing, performing my poetry, and asking for God's guidance in how best he wants me to proceed. Happy Birthday to Me!
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